Bad

6th January 2012

>>>All the names you'll see are aliases<<<

Students in school sucks. You can hardly find real Friends or BFFs because rumor mill rocks the minds of all the judgemental students.Including the Honor Students sucks, so so competitive.

1st quarter, people seemed boring to be with. I could hardly make new friends that time.

2nd quarter, I got close with Linda and treated her as my bestfriend. I already have a crush on someone named Drew and I told Linda all my feeling for him without knowing that Linda was telling all of it to Drew (They are good friends, indeed.). Well, things just don't work the way I expected.

>>>Not good...

-Ella- "Marga, when Linda and I were cleaning the classroom yesterday, Linda mentioned that she dislikes you 'coz you over-react." I cried 'coz I didn't expect those words to be uttered by her. When she saw me crying at the food court, she asked me why then I walked out. A classmate of mine told me that Linda rolled her eyes when I walked away. Because of my classmates (having itchy tongues), she knew that the reason of my cry was her. The week after, I asked her why she got that bad feeling for me. She said sh'es jealous, thinking that I'm Mr. John's favorite student.

3rd Quarter, it was my first time to see Drew crying since he was bullied by someone, told that he's a "Gay". AND things got worse.

>>>Worse...

-Drew's cousin, Lily ...speaking (and Linda)- "Marga, Drew have a bad plan. Please don't be too obsessed of Drew.By the way, What will you do if Drew won't attend your birthday party?" I responded "I will cancel it...". Lily said "Pls. don't feel bad to what I will say but Drew doesn't like you, I'm sorry". I actually didn't feel bad hearing it. I just got a bad feeling of hearing what she said... "bad plan". I wondered until Feliz told me about it.

-Feliz- "Marga, Drew and Linda got a bad plan for you. The reason why Linda always mention 'Drew' in your presence, making you blush, is because she wants you to be so obsessed that would make your grades go down. Drew is supporting her plan, probably, they want to beat you in the Honor Ranking. You know how? He acts as if he likes you too or let's say 'flirting'. He sends letter saying 'I LOVE YOU MARGA' . Weird right? Surely is a bad plan, real one Marga." Well , I am not the type of girl who loves flirting.I'm the kind of girl who is always judged by people, and to tell you, I am the topic of the gossips most of the time (the ones whom I think are jealous....yup, competitive....crab mentality...).

-Ella- I discovered that Ella (Drew's Cousin) was also supporting their plan. When Ella and Drew knew that I knew the real matter, they said sorry in the FB chat and told me to call them through the landline phone. Drew was the one who answered. I yelled at him, crying, because of my anger. Afterwards, Ella and I started our conversation, still about the matter.

-I am a writer of our school publication. When our team went to another province for the contest, I see Linda and Drew hanging out in the mall together (not alone) that made me feel insecure and because of that, I joined with the High School Students...weird. Know Why? The other Elem. writers are teasing them both as lovers and I felt kinda jealous. When we have the tour to museum, he was always poking me (until now) yah and few seconds later until the end of the tour, he is with Linda ALONE (meaning, only the two of them are not with the group during the tour). The only happy thing that happened there is when we (I, Drew, Linda) are in a bookstore. He kept on poking me and telling funny jokes. He chased me around the store. He laughs whenever I bump on something, yah 'coz he's chasing me, run, run, run...

-Abigail- When we studied together at my home, we, at the same time, were talking about Linda and Drew. I asked Abby if Linda is still gossiping about me. She responded honestly. "You know what Marga, she told me things you surely won't like. She is happy everytime you're jealous, yup- Whenever you see both of them talking and laughing and hear our classmates' talk about Drew-Linda Loveteam (Drew seems to like Linda). She even said that you seem like you want to separate Raen and her from being close friends. The worst one is, She would be so glad seeing you down. DOWN. Going down in the honor list, Feeling down ummm sad, Down, Down, Down." Ouch! It really hurts. It is my 2nd time to be betrayed by my own bestfriend. I really didn't expect her to say that. Despite all the gossips I heard, that she dislikes me and stuff, I still think she treats me as a real bestfriend, too. I realized that I am just so blind. She is PLASTIC AND A GOOD LIAR. She's good in telling lies. Yeah, Eyes don't lie. Looking through her eyes, I could hardly sense that she is lying. yah, Good Liar.

-Drew- The day after Abigail went at home for the study, Drew texted that he will come 'coz he wants me to teach him about the topics in our Science subject (My favorite subject). It's so so weird. He went to all corners of my house (including my bedroom and the family bedroom)....O.o When we sat on the sofa, he settled his head on my lap. He talked so gently. He followed me wherever I go. There's even a while that I wwnt out to talk to my neighbor. He is watching us having a conversation, holding a bowl of chips. When he went back home, he texted "Don't tell anyone that we are now-". Huh, I think he's kidding. He even texted me on a Saturday (months before the study-at-my-house happened) , "I love you so much.....lovesick of u". When I reached school, he told me it was just a joke.

4th quarter (starting this month), I am expecting things to change since it's New Year 2012.

-Drew- Since the first day of 3rd Quarter, I am seated behind him and I could tell you, He is pretty annoying (People think he's a gay...). Just last Wednesday, our subject teachers returned our Test Papers. Most of the time, the teachers would announce the top scorers. Whenever Linda or Drew have higher scores or would have better answers in the Oral Participation, Drew would say "Haha you're so dull! Look, My score's higher than yours." or "Fear it! Carol would surely beat you in the honor ranking. She, i mean, WE are smarter than you.". Drew's the kind of person who doesn't take things seriously. Well, to tell you frankly, I am serious most of the time.

Next Week, my school would be celebrating the Math Club Week. Drew is good in Math, and yeah, he really loves math. I got disappointed knowing that Linda is Drew's partner for the Math Quiz- I am one of the contestants for the Math Amazing Race. Drew told me that he actually wants me to be his partner because Linda is not good -or let's say dull- in Math (TRUTH!). I'm sure he's just making a drama because after talking, he asked Linda if she wanna be the contestant. She smiled. I think they made it all up.

I wish I could tell more.

Please give me advices. And yeah, tell me also on what these guys are up to. If Drew's feelings for me were real.If Linda's not a good friend and so on. Thank You.